Letters to Jesus

I was hesitant to share some of these personal journal entries, but if even just one person will find encouragement in them then it's for something... some of the entries were from points of desperation in my life, others from times of peace and revelation.

From my journal:

10-20-2008 I am dying of thirst by the side of the fountain.

For so long I found it difficult to believe that I was worthy of love. Forgive me for the times I didn't trust you. You have been so patient with me. You have looked at my heart; you saw my tortured soul and you rescued me from darkness. You loved me even when I betrayed you and went back to my old ways. You never gave up on me. What is it that you want to break in me Lord, so that my heart is capable of love, love as you intended it to be?

10-1-2009 Why do I insist on wasting my time and effort on the things that don't fill me up?

11-2-2009 I can see the cross at the top of the hill.

12-28-2009 Your light is greater than my darkness.

12-29-2009 We have a plan that is set before us by God, no one's plan looks the exact same, which means that we can't look at others beside us and compare ourselves to them; we must look ahead to the finish line where Jesus waits, cheering us on.

1-13-2010 Your faith is not a concept, it's a conviction; and every ounce of your being must pour into that conviction.

The Lord filled them with joy by changing their attitude.

3-12-2010 How is it that I can let your beauty escape me?

Remind me of the blood you shed so that I may have peace and joy, so that I may be free.
Your sacrifice paid the price and your ressurection made me free.

You
Defeated
Death...

So Lord I ask you to defeat me, defeat my flesh, defeat my will, defeat my sin, and defeat everything inside of me that stands against you.

8-1-2010 Thank you my sweet Jesus for giving me a new life. I am no longer bound by chains for your Spirit is within me, all is forgiven and I am clean.

You make known to me the path of life, in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11

There's a flowing river that I sit beside I cannot leave it, for it gives me life.